Ok I wouldn't have taken Micah or Tommy even to the doctor over what William's problems were today, but being William I figured it better we get it checked out, so I called to Pedi, to see what she had to say and she agreed, also because he lost weight with the last weight check, so I took my time going down to Children's Rob came home from work early on his Most busy day of the year. So I fed William and then went down there. His symptoms were not eating as well as normal, little cough, little congested, little lethargic, threw up a little of what he ate this am, (but that can be normal for him with his burps), course we got there and he was acting just fine, smiled for the nurses, slept through the IV, ate 4 oz, ate another 6 oz about 2 hrs later. Shade (our doctor that I know from my March 2006 group of friends) (God was so taking care of us giving us the best doctor ever, and I'm so glad we knew our doctor!) was telling us he could be admitted for FTT (failure to thrive), but since he wasn't dehydrated and lung x-ray was clear (our 2 main concerns) then we were free to go, and we will be following up with our Pediatrician.
We're trying to go for an MRI for William for the eye thing, the neurologist ordered it, but he's doing it less and less, so I need to ask the neurologist if it's really necessary, and if so, can I pick up the written orders for the MRI so we can get it done at a location that's baby friendly, and lets the mom remain with him during the procedure.
The Fair was fun! We didn't do a whole lot, got there kinda late afternoon, walked around a bit, got some food, saw the parade, cars, Elsie (Bordon mascot milk cow), some booths, food and fiber pavilion, light show, William cried through a bunch of it, and there was nothing we could do, then he passed out and slept through everything else.
Mother of a "Special" Child
When I was young, I'd often say,
I'd like to be a mom someday
While playing with my baby doll,
I thought that job's not hard at all
I'd have a baby, maybe two,
a girl in pink...a boy in blue
Well I grew up and sure enough,
I'm now a mom and gosh it's tough
The baby that was sent to me,
was born with disabilities
At first I'm frightened through and through,
there's much to learn to care for you
This wasn't in my plans at all,
when I was young and played with dolls
Your mind and body were so weak,
you might not ever walk or speak
So much special care required,
I'm often scared and often tired
As months and years go slowly by,
I smile a lot but sometimes cry
To watch you grow and not complain,
though you endure your share of pain
Oh, how I'd hold you and I'd pray,
that you'd be healed and whole someday
But I knew that was not to be,
not physically or mentally
And so I taught you best I could,
your progress wasn't very good
But then one day I realized,
as I gazed into your loving eyes
That I had learned so much from you,
determination...courage too
A love so unconditional,
it floods my soul and always will
I'm proud to say I gave you birth,
for you're an angel here on earth.
God Choose a mother for a "Special" child
Most women becaome mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressure and a couple by habit.
This year nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of handicapped children. Did you ever wonder how mothers of handicapped children are chosen?
Somehow I visualize God hovering over earth selecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As He observes, He instructs His angels to make notes in a giant ledger.
"Armstrong, Beth; son. Patron saint...give her Gerard. He's used to profanity."
"Forrest, Marjotie; daughter. Patron saint, Cecelia."
"Rutledge, Carrie; twins. Patron saint, Matthew."
Finally He passes a name to an angel and smiles, "Give her a handicapped child."
The angel is curious. "Why this one God? She's so happy."
"Exactly," smiles God, "Could I give a handicapped child to a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel."
"But she has patience?" asked the angel.
"I don't want her to have to much patience or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wears off, she'll handle it."
"I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independence that is so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I'm going to give her has his own world. She has to make her live in her world and that's not going to be easy."
"But, Lord, I don't think she even believes in you." God smiles, "No matter, I can fix that. This one is perfect - she has just enough selfishness." The angel gasps - "selfishness? is that a virtue?"
God nods. "If she can't separate herself from the child occasionally, she'll never survive. Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with a child less perfect. She doesn't realize it yet, but she is to be envied. She will never take for granted a 'spoken word'. She will never consider a 'step' ordinary. When her child says 'Momma' for the first time, she will be present at a miracle, and will know it!"
"I will permit her to see clearly the things I see...ignorance, cruelty, prejudice....and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life, because she is doing My work as surely as if she is here by My side".
And what about her Patron saint? asked the angel, his pen poised in mid-air.
God smiles, "A mirror will suffice."
